tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56941179301197002842024-03-12T21:59:52.688-07:00!?! Ohaii Pixiie !?!...because we have so much to say when we can't find our voice......Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.comBlogger55125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-23250540442642117772010-11-07T19:52:00.000-08:002010-11-07T19:54:42.856-08:00Please read and help me out: after watching today's La Ink cancer episode today....<p>mum and i sat down and had a talk about cancer and all the different ways it has affected people we know.</p><br /><p>My mum had a cancer scare this year, and although she hasn't kept me or my siblings updated with it, we know it has touched our family.</p><br /><p>So after watching the episode, instead of studying for my exams, i have been sitting on the internet researching cancer, and causes, and treatments and organisations that help spread the awareness of cancer.</p><br /><p>For me I can't go past Skate4Cancer. The founder Rob Dyer was on the episode of La Ink and I did a heap of research into the organisation.</p><br /><p>Check out the website here <a href="http://skate4cancer.com/">http://skate4cancer.com/</a></p><br /><p>Unlike most other organisations i have come across, Skate4Cancer isnt interested in making money, but instead spreading awareness, especially to young people. B skating across countries (he did Australia Nov 09 to Feb 10) Rob and his team help to let people everywhere know about ways to prevent cancer and spread awareness of the disease.</p><br /><p>They also hold a music event called "The Cure Is Knowledge" which has been to Canada and will be in Europe soon.</p><br /><p>THIS IS THE REASON FOR MY POST !</p><br /><p>Sometime next year i want to put on a show in Melbourne in support of Skate4Cancer. I want to get bands, people, organisations involved. I wanted to get a basic idea whether anyone would actually be interested in it before i contact Skate4Cancer and see what the deal would be. So if you could please repost this and spread the word so i can gauge interest that would be fantastic !</p><br /><p>Thank you so much !</p><br /><p><strong>Dream. Love. Cure. </strong></p><br /><p><strong>"We may not raise enough money to change the world, but we may be able to raise enough people to change the world. So spread the word!"</strong></p><a href="http://brokenpuzzlepieces.tumblr.com/post/1512757268"></a>...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-66104547494425237382010-10-05T04:01:00.000-07:002010-10-05T04:01:33.360-07:00Application for the SEEK ARIAs A-List Party Patroller - A DREAM COME TRUE FOR MEIF YOU COULD PLEASE TAKE 10 SECONDS OUT OF YOUR TIME TO DO THIS FOR ME IT WOULD BE SOSOSO COMPLETELY AMAZING, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS VOTE AND I COULD WIN AN EXPERIENCE THAT WOULD MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE<br /><br /><a href="http://arias.seek.com.au/profile/Ohaii(f_Pixiie">Application for the SEEK ARIAs A-List Party Patroller vacancy, made by Ohaii. Pixiie</a><br /><br />IT WOULD MEAN THE ABSOLUTE WORLD TO ME.......Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-1746910291360455992010-08-19T16:50:00.000-07:002010-08-19T16:52:25.990-07:00moved to tumblr....i havent been on here for a while as i have moved my blog to tumblr.com<br /><br />its a lot easier to post a variety of things etc etc<br /><br />if you have a tumblr follow me, im always looking for new blogs to check out....<br /><br />www.ohaiipixiie.tumblr.com<br /><br />=D catch xx...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-36268556226548279742010-06-25T20:10:00.000-07:002010-06-25T20:16:00.212-07:00remembering what is hardest to forget...i’d give anything in the world to take back everything i ever said to you,<br /><br />to erase from my memory everything you ever said to me,<br /><br />to forget ever knowing you,<br /><br />to elimininate everything i ever felt for you.<br /><br />because if you hadnt existed in my life i wouldnt be sitting here wishing i still meant something to you. it sucks when the past creeps back into the future and you realise something that you had pushed aside never actually went away.<br /><br />and i will sit here and tell everyone that i dont care about you anymore, and that you didnt mean half as to much to me as you actually did (as you still do). i will tell myself i dont need you anymore and that i can forget you the way you have forgotten me.<br /><br />but the truth is no matter how far from your mind i am you still own a piece of me, and no matter how much you dont want it i dont know how to take it back.<br /><br />i am a mess and i miss you…....Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-11827660800957437722010-06-18T06:58:00.000-07:002010-06-18T07:03:28.272-07:00welcome to capetown;so im actually looking forward to tomorrow night. it's elizzibizzle's 18th and because she is all cute and quirky the theme is 'cape's'! How adorable ^__^!<br /><br />Tomorrow bianka and i have to wake up super early and catch the bus to watergardens to get material and for the first time since turning 18 buy alcohol haha.<br /><br />It shall be a good night full of drunken laughs and moments. Hopefully i dont have anymore secrets to spill this time.<br /><br />I may try and kiss Jean again though haha.<br /><br />I will surely post some photos of our cute capes and drunken antics in the next few days.<br /><br />But for me now it is goodnight.<br />Ciao blogspot!...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-13684874743379799582010-06-14T06:01:00.000-07:002010-06-14T06:06:36.580-07:00wasting moments waiting for you;and how am i meant to keep you off my mind when you are the topic of everyone around me's conversation?!?!<br /><br />My mum= was he out on saturday night?<br />My brother=did you hang out with him at bang?<br />My sister= he told me i looked good on saturday night, etc etc<br />My best friend= he has gotten so hot.<br /><br />Etc etc etc.<br /><br />I seriously cant handle it. Im trying to forget i have feelings for you so i can go back to be happy and okay with my life and all i can think about is how much you are trying to be in everyone else's life while pushing yourself out of mine.<br /><br />I regret so badly ever admitting to you i had feelings for you because then maybe we could still be normal.<br /><br />Eh this is shit -_-...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-25566485027496842542010-06-13T06:02:00.000-07:002010-06-13T06:12:45.755-07:00writer's block;i wish i had the motivation to update this regularly. not really for anyone else but mainly for myself. there is so much going on in my head at the moment and im finding it so hard to categorise and figure out.<br /><br />so much of my time is spent trying to unjumble my thoughts that i havent really spent that much time thinking about them.<br /><br />im just so confused with where everything is going.<br /><br />i keep surprising myself in strange and sometimes good ways though lately.<br /><br />im still cant believe that my drunken self revealed to everyone that i have feelings for him. truthfully those feelings have existed for a good year now, on and off, and no body ever knew (or so i though anyway) and this made me happy because i could do whatever the hell i wanted. but now they are out in the open and they can hurt me, and ohgawsh they do hurt me.<br /><br />then there is the situation with her. and the fact that i know she is still being nice to me for a reason that has nothing to do with wanting to be my friend. and lately i have thrown away bitchy gloria and decided to try and see the better in people before wanting to hurt them. and im trying so very hard to see the good in this situtation, but all i see is her rubbing this "thing" with him in my face in various sublte and not-so-subtle ways.<br /><br />and the whole "sexuality" argument has come up again. some would say i am 18 and should therefore now where my sexuality lies, but the truth is i am so confused i dont even know anymore. i know i like boys, i like boys a lot, but i also like girls, just not as much. gosh i am so confused. this confusion has led to me being called: a straight girl pretending to like girls because i think it's cool, a lesbian trying to make myself like boys so i can fit in, a slut, an idiot, a freak among many things. 3 years ago i would have called myself bisexual, but the stigma attached with it is so negative im not even sure anymore<br /><br />and my final paragraph is good. last night i went clubbing for the first time. i was a bit afraid to do this as i am super socially awkward and i cant talk to people i dont know. seeing as nonw of my close friends are 18 i was going out with the freeza crew. but something came over me last night, even before the alcohol. i got dressed up and did my hair and makeup and i actually felt pretty, that feeling was amazing. so i went out and i spoke to people i hadnt met before, i even started conversations. i think im going to be okay at this whole socialising thing. haha<br /><br />ergh on a final note, i hate that when im a little intoxicated the only place that i want to be is with him. i got so excited when i saw him arrive last night and i guess it hurt, because ive been trying to make myself believe that whatever i think i feel for him is make believe...not happening. and when i get intoxicated i am so affectionate and all i want to do is hug him, and touch him, and kiss him....the last one probably never going to happen. but i did kiss a very good looking boy last night =)<br /><br />haha anyway goodnight blog...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-59916187074314291522010-06-13T05:49:00.000-07:002010-06-13T05:58:41.093-07:00list as...im bored :/CROSS OUT THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE:<br />Graduated High School<br /><s>Kissed someone.</s><br /><s>Smoked cigarettes.</s><br />Got so drunk you passed out.<br /><s>Rode every ride at an amusement park.</s><br /><s>Collected something really stupid.</s><br /><s>Gone to a rock concert.</s><br /><s>Helped someone</s>.<br />Gone fishing.<br /><s>Watched four movies in one night.</s><br /><s>Gone long periods of time with out sleep.</s><br /><s>Lied to someone.</s><br />Snorted cocaine.<br />Failed a class.<br />Smoked weed.<br />Dealt drugs.<br /><s>Taken a college level course.</s><br /><s>Been in a car accident.</s><br />Been in a tornado.<br />Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).<br />Watched someone die.<br />Been to a funeral.<br /><s>Burned yourself.</s><br />Ran a marathon.<br />Your parents got divorced.<br /><s>Cried yourself to sleep.</s><br /><s>Spent over $200 in one day.</s><br /><s>Flown in a plane.</s><br />Cheated on someone.<br />Been cheated on.<br /><s>Written a 10 page letter.</s><br />Gone skiing.<br />Been sailing.<br /><s>Cut yourself.</s><br /><s>Had a best friend.</s><br /><s>Lost someone you loved.</s><br /><s>Shoplifted something.</s><br />Been to jail.<br />Dangerously close to being in jail.<br /><s>Had detention.</s><br /><s>Skipped school.</s><br /><s>Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.</s><br /><s>Stolen books from the library.</s><br />Gone to a different country.<br />Dropped out of school.<br />Been in a mental hospital.<br /><s>Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.</s><br /><s>Had an online diary.</s><br />Fired a gun.<br />Gambled in a casino.<br />Had a yard sale.<br />And a lemonade stand.<br />Actually made money at the lemonade stand.<br /><s>Been in a school play.</s><br />Been fired from a job.<br />Taken a lie detector test. <br />Swam with dolphins.<br /><s>Gone to sea world.</s><br /><s>Voted for someone on a reality TV show.</s><br /><s>Written poetry.</s><br /><s>Read more than 20 books a year.</s><br />Gone to Europe.<br /><s>Loved someone you couldn’t have.</s><br /><s>Wondered about your sexuality.</s><br /><s>Used a coloring book over age 12.</s><br />Had surgery. <br />Had stitches.<br /><s>Taken a taxi.</s><br />Seen the Washington Monument.<br /><s>Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.</s><br />Overdosed.<br />Had a drug or alcohol problem.<br /><s>Been in a fist fight</s>.<br />Suffered any form of abuse.<br />Had a hamster.<br /><s>Pet a wild animal.</s><br />Used a credit card.<br />Gone surfing in California.<br />Did “spirit day” at school.<br /><s>Dyed your hair.</s><br /><s>Got a tattoo.</s><br /><s>Had something pierced.</s><br /><s>Got straight A’s.</s><br />Been on the Honor Roll.<br />Known someone with HIV or AIDS.<br />Taken pictures with a webcam.<br />Started a fire.<br />Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-35368983894711682372010-06-02T16:22:00.000-07:002010-06-02T16:33:49.908-07:00hours spent sleeping are only hours wasted....bleh everything feels so wrong at the moment<br />yet i am more content with the direction my life is going then ever before.<br />i feel as if im finally shedding my skin, getting rid of the old, useless Gloria and growing into a better one.<br />im not going to pretend that i dont regret many of my recent actions, but i can't dwell on those mistakes, all they do i bring me down.<br /><br />Almost half of my year 12 year has gone past, and i am finally 18. It is scary just how fast this year has gone and just how quickly i am growing up.<br /><br />There are only 138 days until 'Muck Up' Day.<br />fuck that is scary. in 138 days the routine i have known for 13 years will be over.<br />i'm not sure what i'll even do with my life. Well i know ill be going to uni...but the world of university seems much bigger and entirely different to the world i am in at the moment.<br /><br />it it true what people say. the days of a year 12 student dont involve much sleep at the end. most days i am living on no more then 3 or 4 hours sleep. Especially as it is coming up to the end of semester and the SACs are piling on. thank god im not 'smart' enough to do a science. no mid years for me =D<br /><br />Although, i cant complain. Year 12 is going rather splendidly for me. i am doing better in all my subjects then i ever thought i would. i'd like to do a bit better in english, but im getting A's so i should be alright.<br /><br />138 days and counting........Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-78322575681564849462010-05-19T18:59:00.000-07:002010-05-19T19:12:19.825-07:00i want one of these....tattooed on my left thigh!<br /><br />in a little over a month i shall have my cassette tape on my right thigh and then i want one of these Sylvia Ji artworks next to it.<br /><br />She is amazing and these two are my favourites that i have come across so far.<br /><br />let me know what you think or if you know any artists that do similar work :)<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhx90dCWbWcG9K4lhVH7MPs6_QKW6e1nqa19o16opbgz6GSzETKZ9dig71CjFaZ_9dO6UdGFnoM2bXswKa1c4VRf_VkHjvS7ZCvmSLGrppOwvt1QHgVJzrUpVgyqQeNfCC6a8we-L0so8/s1600/1551692011_0342ff7a86_o.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhx90dCWbWcG9K4lhVH7MPs6_QKW6e1nqa19o16opbgz6GSzETKZ9dig71CjFaZ_9dO6UdGFnoM2bXswKa1c4VRf_VkHjvS7ZCvmSLGrppOwvt1QHgVJzrUpVgyqQeNfCC6a8we-L0so8/s320/1551692011_0342ff7a86_o.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473169152252795538" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGUcUnOTr1_275IWquoMldjSEaE_A-SeO6S71XKUYEAHNRboxiFk19JErxeTfcnaEcfFR5v2B3bAvrGSKLUJM9UIM-Tadj5Uyy8JzDNuI7jafkP_G0mNBm8IaN1AWaozzaFSmHVQtv9rQ/s1600/20081209_sylviaji.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 255px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGUcUnOTr1_275IWquoMldjSEaE_A-SeO6S71XKUYEAHNRboxiFk19JErxeTfcnaEcfFR5v2B3bAvrGSKLUJM9UIM-Tadj5Uyy8JzDNuI7jafkP_G0mNBm8IaN1AWaozzaFSmHVQtv9rQ/s320/20081209_sylviaji.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473169148864263218" /></a>...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-90164853767182735662010-05-04T00:14:00.000-07:002010-05-04T00:17:39.526-07:00Only 11 more sleeps...these are the last 11 days of gloria's life where she will be underage.<br />EEPP! i am so goddamn excited!<br />i just want to hurry up and be 18 already ^__^!<br />i hope its as good as everyone makes it out to be..because i am uber excited to finally go out and stuffs!<br />Although i am a bit nervous, as i am not the most sociable person.<br />Like get me in a room with a zillion people i know, and i am fine, i could probably talk to leg off a chair, however try and get me talking to someone i am just meeting and my self conscious issues creep in and i become a nervous awkward freak :/<br />hopefully it will just get easier!<br /><br />however...woow 11 sleeps :D...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-3255619121120442902010-04-28T02:02:00.000-07:002010-04-28T02:35:23.718-07:00THE AMITY AFFLICTION TOUR VIDEOS....ARE GETTING ME SUPER EXCITED FOR JUNE 18TH<br />GET EXCITED WITH ME?<br /><br />HERE IS THE LATEST TOUR DIARY...CLINT IS CHATTING IT UP (y)!<br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/D8mPry4QxzU&hl=en_US&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/D8mPry4QxzU&hl=en_US&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><br />its a tad cut off and i dont know how to make my blog bigger so here is the link....check check check it out :D<br /><br /><blockquote>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8mPry4QxzU</blockquote>...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-87550805465688479932010-04-27T23:32:00.000-07:002010-04-27T23:52:50.663-07:00THE AMITY AFFLICTION!so lets just say im more than a little bit excited for youngbloods to be released. It would have to be my most awaited album of the year, and im even more excited for the tour.<br />Sarah and I are heading to both Melbourne shows and the show in Bendigo so its going to be ssiicckkk! <br /><br />CHECK OUT THE TOUR DATES AND GET DOWN TO A SHOW!!!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/event.php?eid=113316295366754&ref=ts" _cke_saved_href="http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/event.php?eid=113316295366754&ref=ts" target="_blank"><img alt="" height="568" src="http://www.staple.com.au/host/youngbloods_tourposter_400.jpg" _cke_saved_src="http://www.staple.com.au/host/youngbloods_tourposter_400.jpg" width="400" /></a>">...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-42593305773592820062010-04-24T04:32:00.000-07:002010-04-24T04:42:15.073-07:00id shed my skin if you were willing to see me...im not quite sure what that means...<br /><br /><br />ill sing you a song you will never hear,<br />and ill whisper words that wont reach your ear,<br />i'll draw you a picture you will never see,<br />and ill map out the way to get to me.<br />I'll blow you kisses you will never feel,<br />and touch you in ways id wish were real,<br />id hold you all night till the sun came back,<br />and kiss your cheek as you took a nap.<br />Id be everything you wanted,<br />you are everything i need,<br />but you can never be here,<br />Because you'll never see me....Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-73704171198836027312010-04-23T20:05:00.000-07:002010-04-23T22:12:06.755-07:00if you wanted a blog written about you, all you had to do was ask...and i promised my self i wouldn't spend this weekend crying about you but just like every promise ever made to me..it always gets broken<br /><br />i know you will never read these words<br />and even if you did i know you wouldn't care<br /><br />but i wish i could get the feeling back<br />the one you gave me.<br />you were the only person in the history of forever who made me feel beautiful and so quickly you took that feeling away...i hate you for doing that, i want that feeling back.<br /><br />i want so badly for you to be back in my life<br />the way it was before<br />id stay up every night just to talk to you<br />and wake up in the morning just to read the cute things you'd left for me<br /><br />you used to tell me i was beautiful and for the first time in forever i actually believed it, because i believed you...i believe everything you'd ever told me. how foolish i can be<br /><br />now i sit here crying because i cant stop thinking about you.....i have waited so long for today and i knew it'd only bring disappointment but i never expected it'd feel like this...i didn't think you still meant that much to me.......Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-88993834155749390062010-04-23T03:33:00.000-07:002010-04-23T03:51:05.676-07:00food for my hungry thoughts...I was just reading some posts on <a href="http://www.attainablemind.com "></a>(if your are closed minded I wouldn’t bother reading) <br /><br />but the stuff presented is actually rather interesting. The web bot predictor post is probably the one that got me thinking the most thus far..especially about the data gap from early 2012 to may 2013....made me think heaps!<br /><br />Ill quickly summarise that psrt. However, no matter what your beliefs are i do urge you to check out this site....it does provide a large amount of food for thought. A lot of what is presented doesnt match up with my beliefs but it is still always interesting to read about what other people believe and have found out.<br /><br />The web bot is a technology that was discovered by Cliff High and George Ure. They claim it is able to predict future events by tracking keywords entered on the Internet. Originally it was created to predict stock market trends, but in 2001 they saw what they called a large "tipping point" that lasted for about six hours with a "release period" of about five days. The date was September 11th. From that moment on, they decided to dedicate their lives to improving the Web Bot's ability to predict the future. They say the Web Bot is correct a little more than 50 percent of the time. <br /><br />Two future predictions for 2010 are:<br />-November 11th, 2010 - The web bot warns of a big tipping point possibly World War III<br />-December 14th, 2010 - The web bot predicts the first missile launch of World War III<br /><br />There doesnt seem to be any catalyst for World War III, but im just posting things that fascinated me. The prediction that really drew my attention was the catastrophe set to begin early 2012 and end may 2013. Between this period of time there is a data gap. The belief of the write for this data gap is the next geomagnetic storm, the last was in 1859. If this is true then the entire world will be left without any electricity. That means no power to run lighting, tv, straighteners, computers, BASICALLY the majority of things we now rely on around the world. <br /><br />read about it if you are even the slight bit fascinated....it is actually rather interesting. whether we choose to believe is a different story......Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-58176255447585973232010-04-22T14:38:00.000-07:002010-04-22T14:45:24.982-07:00you can crush me, so please dont crush me...you are just two people filling eachother's void for human attention and affection. Dont trick yourself into believing it is much more that, its impossible for it to be.<br /><br />You are just two kids who long to be loved and therefore you have created the illusion of it, and in the fear of it dwindling away you will fight so powerfully to keep that illisuion there. Oh how i hate the over use of 'i love you' these days. It used to mean something, now its thrown around by every love sick teeanger who has been in a relationship for a few days.<br /><br />And i see the path you are taking, you have walked this path so many times before, the path just had a different face, this road a different name. And i know the way it will end, you throw yourself into these things too quickly. And how can you say ' i love you' and then go and do the other things you do....dont worry honey i want rat you out!<br /><br />But when you are done playing magician maybe you can sink back to planet earth for a while........Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-15591522898227948382010-04-19T20:55:00.000-07:002010-04-19T20:57:31.930-07:00sarah and iget ourselves into the most ridiculous situations and we choose to do rather random things. from a simple little game we have now created a challenge for ourselves.<br />im not saying what it is...but oh how fun it shall be<br /><br />oh god the shit we come up with......Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-24823257588290857012010-04-18T21:39:00.000-07:002010-04-18T21:43:05.719-07:00and this week...will show me the truth i have been waiting to see for a while now....<br /><br />it will disappoint me in one of two ways<br />the feeling is inevitable...<br /><br />i wish i could forget you<br />i really wish i'd stop trying!...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-45877271515571643872010-04-16T23:20:00.000-07:002010-04-17T16:13:59.462-07:00i like my coffee black just like my metal...So, my massive beef at the moment is something that is pretty important to me and it has to do with the condition of our local music scene in Melbourne and how ever so quickly we are losing it.<br /><br />Being someone who organises gigs i can symapthize with the bands that are saying no one is coming out to their shows because i can assure you, it is true!<br /><br />If you can say you love a band and you can buy, or probably download, their album/s and you can tell everyone how much you love them and you can post their lyrics in your bulletins and statuses etc...then why the fuck cant you get down to one of their shows...its as simple as that. Bands livelihoods revolve around playing shows and seeing their fans (because that is what you call yourselves) watching them. Most of these bands play shows that cost no more than 20 dollars, but you will find a lot of the gigs, especially if they are with FReeZA committees, are going to be free or pretty close to that anyway. So go and get ten bucks and go and see a local show. Not only is it a lot of fun but the bands and organisors love it :)...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-16973425560294169832010-04-16T18:46:00.001-07:002010-04-16T18:48:01.008-07:00words of the past ring true in my future....reading over my old posts remembering the way i used to feel and i realise i havent made much progress.<br />i still feel the same hurting i did before, the hurting has just taken on a new face.<br />there is one blog i wrote that i still completely relate to, and i liked it....have a read if you wish...<br /><br />http://itsgloriaa.blogspot.com/2009/11/worst-feeling.html...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-44064572845840771542010-04-16T17:44:00.000-07:002010-04-16T18:09:09.580-07:00the future...when i think about the future i get so scared<br />soon ill be finished school and ill have to find something else to do to fill my time.<br />im scared of growing up, of getting out into the world on my own, i dont want to have to make my own decisions.<br />oh gawsh the future is a scary place, and i dont want to go there just yet.<br />i guess we all get older, if we are living it is inevitable. it scares me that i look back and remember thinking "wow in 6 years ill be 18 and in year 12" it used to excite me...now im a month from being 18 (and im still friggin excited haha) but being in year 12 is the scariest place ive ever been. holding my breath while waiting for sac marks hoping that i did okay. <br /><br />but this bulletin really started because i dont want the next week to go by.....next weekend something is going to happen. if this happened three months ago i would have been overjoyed but now im hesitant...because i know whats going to happen. well, i guess there are two possibilites....and im really not even sure which possibility is better anymore.<br />it kills me...you kill me....dont let next weekend come :/...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-55842395367843975092010-04-08T21:54:00.000-07:002010-04-08T21:55:11.525-07:00one day i will find this feeling....<blockquote><em>“Love is the extremely difficult realization that something other than oneself is real.”</em></blockquote>...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-30041021360371160402010-04-08T21:30:00.000-07:002010-04-08T21:54:28.882-07:00Realization......i can assure you, you were never a friend of mine.<br /><br />for so long its been about him, and before it was about him, there were other assholes just like him that took my heart and then tried to give it back before i was ready.<br /><br />but a few days ago i realized there has been someone who has been there through it all...someone who my heart longed for but my mind tried to pretend it didn't want.<br />i think this is because out of every boy I've ever longed for this boy is the most unattainable.<br /><br />lately when i see him i get butterflies.....not those big angry mean ones, but little cute ones right at the pit of my stomach.<br /><br />i know he isn't the sort of boy that would look at me the way i look at him....but its fun to pretend that maybe he might.<br /><br />realization is a bitch...because it forces you to accept those little things you have been trying to hide, the parts of your thoughts you fight to forget and pretend they never popped into existence.<br /><br />...but now i long for the day when your arms will be around me and it'll mean more than friendship....<br /><br /><em><br />...i hope one day we can be more than friends...</em>...Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5694117930119700284.post-15829272350202570732010-03-30T02:49:00.001-07:002010-03-30T03:07:16.543-07:00Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again, you'll just come back running...ps...that's a fucking amazing song<br /><br />but anyway<br /><br />I'm still trying to remember what it felt like to smile a real smile....<br />when id stay up all night talking to you<br />and then the next day id tell everyone about all the cute things you'd said<br />you were the first boy to make me feel beautiful in so long<br />and when you went away for the first time you took that feeling with you<br />again you left me feeling repulsive and ugly, i hate myself and i cant get past it<br /><br />when you came back i thought you'd bring that feeling with you<br />but you havent<br />it feels different now<br />because im waiting for you to leave again<br />you always leave<br />and then you come back at your liesure<br />just when i think its ohkay to forget you<br /><br />and now i cant forget you<br />and i wait up every night hoping you will text me<br />and some nights when ive waited long enough ill text you<br />and hope that you will reply<br /><br />you keep telling me youve missed me<br />but you were the one that went away<br />and i am the stupid girl that lies awake crying every night because i cant forget you, and i cant forget the way it felt to feel beautiful<br /><br />and i know im ridiculous for letting a stupid boy determine how i feel about myself....but when your self confidence is in negatives you will graps at anything to feel good about yourself<br /><br />now only time will tell me when you will leave again....and another night will pass when ill believe all the stupid things you say...because my heart thinks you've missed me and my heart thinks you care....and soon enough my heart will find out the real truth....Ohaii...Pixiie...http://www.blogger.com/profile/13658282738516518928noreply@blogger.com0