Monday, October 26, 2009

i left myself...

here on this chair
right now
in this moment
im taking a step forward

i wrote down all the things i hate
everything i want to change
and all i want to achieve
everything im still holding on to
now i will leave it here
in the moment of 5.06pm on the 27th of October 2009
i realise that there is too much i am allowing to effect me
things i should move on from
and things i shouldnt want

i know i need to change
for myself and everyone around me
the downward spiral i have put myself in isnt helping anyone

so now its time to get out of it......

Friday, October 16, 2009

just felt...

in the mood for writing
i dont believe i have done enough of this lately
ive been more in a talking mood
talking way too much
just to fill in the silence
and to stop me from thinking

so anyway
i was posting for a good reason
because i am in a great mood
and this blog wont be as depressing as my others

today i looked in the mirror
and saw myself
a reflection i have been avoiding for some time
but i didnt see the girl i usually see
i saw someone better
someone a lot closer to the girl i want to be
i know im moving forward
slowly getting out of my self loathing headspace
and i like it
positive thinking will get me further i am sure

and also i bought the cutest dress today
but mum said my long legs make it look too short so i have to wear tights underneath!
its still cute anyway :D

Sunday, October 4, 2009

everyone...

finds their way out of the dark
everyone finds their little spark
but me ill stand her in these shadows
ill let the blackness cover me whole
i needed you to be my torch
to light my path
to show me the way
but you said you had no batteries
well isnt that a great excuse?