because we speak in pointless nothings....

so ive decided against deleting all my previous blogs.

Although i did read over it and realised that they do paint a rather bad picture of myself. This is why i have decided to post a blog telling you all a little bit about myself.
My full name is Gloria Brancatisano, my parents didnt believe in middle names.
Though i like the name Pixiie.....i wish more people called me it.
i am named after Gloria Estefan because she was my parent's favourite singer when i was born.
I was born on the 15th of May 1992, this makes me 18 very very soon.
i have a twin sister named bianka (not really with the k) she is a minute older than me.
this year i am in Year 12 and its freaking me out.
When i finish i hope to go to uni and study journalism.
i want to be a music journalist.
But as soon as my year 12 exams are over and i get back from schoolies i want to begin a piercing appreticeship.
i love tattoos and piercings, at the moment i dont have much of each.
Only both my ears stretched to a measley 10mm and my smiley done, but for my 18th im getting a medusa piercing.
i tried getting 'ALEX' tattooed in my lip but that was an epic fail, but as an 18th present (half from my best friend and half from myself) i am getting my thigh a tattoo. (ILL POST THE DESIGN WHEN IT IS FINALISED)
uumm i dont know what else to say.
im actually a pretty boring person.
i dont have any quirks or interesting facts that seperate me from the crowd.
Im just me: plain old simple Gloria.
i probably wont interest you from the get go,,,,and you might find me slightly obnoxious.
i have my own beliefs but i promise to accept yours.!
I am probably the most awkward and shy person you will ever meet, but you wont be able to tell through my writing.

ill add to this as it comes to me... :D

starting fresh

i feel as if i havent been here in a while. Like i havent had anything to say that would be even remotely worth saying but i feel as if i want to get back into blogging again....and this time properly. Im contemplating deleting all my old posts and starting a fresh but ill see as i go. However for tonight im going to go to sleep...but im going to try and post on here almost every day.

If you have blogspot follow me and ill follow you back :D

wasting moments on you...

i have lay here in this same position for god knows how many hours. Laying here reading over old messages from you. Words that used to keep me up at night smiling are tonight filling my eyes with tears. I hate that i cant let you go...no matter how far from your mind i am.
I believed every line you ever fed me now im stuck with this feeling.
I feel worthless and i hate you for making me this way. But moreso i hate myself for letting you mean so much to me.

I miss you and you were never really mine to miss in the first place...

2010...a new year!

2010 is a new year
and should very well hold open so many exciting new doors for me.
In no more than a few short weeks i will be embarking on the journey that is my year 12. A scary yet exciting school year awaits me. For me this is the year that i need to put 1000 percent of myself into....to get the marks i need to get into the courses i have been dreaming about for years!

In less than 4 months i will be 18. Finally i can get into overage gigs and get away from stupid scenie boppers....finally i can go to clubs and venues...and finally i can get my medusa piercing and start getting my tatts.

But still i see myself dropping back into old habits.self hate and loathing because i am not good enough. At almost 18 i look around and realise all my friends are girls. Never in my life have i had a boy to fall back on...maybe thats why i suck so bad at the whole 'boy' thing. It makes me laugh that i have spent countless hours crying trying to figure out the reasons why boys just dont like me...spent countless hours standing in the mirror highlihting all of my flaws. I am a failure and i suck at life.

I know i need to get out of the hole and focus on school...something that actually matters...but old flaws and opinions of myself haunt me like ghosts.
I dont know what to do.
Anyone wanna trade bodies? Haha!

And f